Where I’m At
March 29, 2009
I don’t usually post on the weekends, but my husband is studying and I haven’t been on my laptop all weekend, so I hope you don’t mind a random weekend post.
I do have a post coming tomorrow, but I thought tonight would be a good night to do a recap on what the past two weeks have been like for me.
So here’s a 360 “performance review” of my state of being … mentally, as well as physically.
-I haven’t chewed or spit in nearly two weeks, since I had my realization that I AM IN CONTROL.
-I’ve admittedly tested myself when I’ve bought certain trigger foods — and sometimes I have only taken a nibble and chucked it — but I have NOT chewed or spit anything, and that makes me feel good, proud, positive. (Baby steps; I really just need to not buy them at all).
-I’ve eaten more than usual this week according to my food journal, including foods I haven’t eaten in forever — and I enjoyed them like a “normal person”. (For example, I savored three mini cupcakes from a cupcake shop in Ann Arbor that we went to on Saturday — carrot cake being the best of the three!!) But I know that between being active and my workouts (see bullet further down), I should have compensated for the extras. And the best part, I’m not worried about it. Life’s meant to be lived.
-We went to a fantastic party Saturday night where everyone was drinking and grazing all night long. I’ll be honest, I didn’t eat out of hunger (I usually try to assess), but I did nosh and I felt like one of the group (in the past, food sometimes had the power to separate me from group situations) and enjoyed M&Ms and these garlic-bread flavored pretzel pieces. Delish!
-I’ve been exercising a lot, but not obsessively. I think the nice weather (aside from today’s snow!) has contributed to my desire to be outside. I’ve been getting a lot of satisfaction from my workouts, and I biked three times last week for kicks — twice on my own and once with my husband. With my new lifting routine I am spending more time at the gym … but I’m trying to maximize my time there. I didn’t take a rest day this past week, but will this week.
I think if I had to sum up the past two weeks and grade myself, I think I’d get an A for effort. Each day that passes where I DON’T chew/spit … I feel stronger and more in control.
And not in a sick sense of control; no. I feel like a shopaholic who is budgeting her paycheck, and sees a little extra money in savings. That positive reinforcement (savings) makes me feel great.
It’s a new week, and I am looking forward to making the most of it. One day at a time.
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marafaye | March 29, 2009 at 7:59 pm
HUGS to you my dear!! Sounds like you’re in a positive turn!
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Yasmin | March 29, 2009 at 8:07 pm
Great job Liss!! I am really proud of you, you have come so far. xxx
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Yasmin | March 29, 2009 at 8:14 pm
Fantastic! Those are so many accomplishments and I like the ending…one day at a time!
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lissa10279 | March 29, 2009 at 8:15 pm
Aw thanks, Mara and Yas. I feel … “en fuego”
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Kim | March 29, 2009 at 8:58 pm
Sounds like you’re in a good spot. I love bullet lists, and checking in with myself via bullet lists
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Baylee | March 29, 2009 at 10:31 pm
i am SO proud of you for not chewing/spitting! Although I never learned to do that, I know that it can be something that is very difficult to overcome. I actually watched a segment on a girl who apparently couldnt swallow (she really could), and when she would eat, she would just chew and spit everything into a cup, openly in front of her family and kids. It sounds like it is a very difficult habit to kick but it sounds like you are heading in the right direction!
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lissa10279 | March 30, 2009 at 9:42 am
Gracias, girls
And Kim, I’m SUCH a list-maker!! For everything!! Think that’s why I don’t mind journaling or anything; it’s just something I’m good at. Soar with your strengths, right?! 
Thanks, Baylee. It’s such a disgusting habit … I feel so CLEAN not doing it, ya know?! I NEVER want my future kids to experience seeing me do something so gross … so unhealthy. I do feel like I’m headed in the right direction. Thank you all!
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lara | March 30, 2009 at 9:45 am
I love the spending money/eating analogy. I use this a lot myself.
Definitely take at least one rest day. When lifting regularly, if you dont’ take rest days you won’t get full benefit of the hard work you are doing in the gym!
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lissa10279 | March 30, 2009 at 9:59 am
Thanks, Lara. I was very excited last week and just didn’t take a rest day — it’d have only been cardio anyway. That said, I’ll be sure to this week.
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Kristen | March 30, 2009 at 10:58 am
CONGRATS! You must be so proud of yourself for doing so well. It really sounds like you’re learning to live with a healthy balance. I like your shopaholic analogy, it’s so true!
Now that it’s starting to get nicer out, I think it’ll be a little easier to get outside and exercise. It’s a great way to boost our moods and stay on the right track!