Savoring 29 Already :)
October 6, 2008
Smelling the roses...
I didn’t post on Friday because I wanted to enjoy my birthday with no distractions.
While blogging is fun for me, some nights/days it can be like a job…and if I truly wanted to savor the day/weekend, I needed to separate myself for a little bit from the laptop. And thinking about food/exercise.
Ironically, Thursday night (my birthday) I had my first qualifiable “binge” — it was ridiculous. I ate like 10 points at 2 a.m. It was ugly. And I felt awful on Friday.
The thing was, I had had such a great day (lots of calls, e-mails, gorgeous flowers from my husband and a wonderful gift), and had been planning on saving my points for my big birthday dinner out on Friday night with friends …
In retrospect, I think maybe I should have treated myself to something on my actual birthday, because it backfired royally. Instead of savoring something with my husband and friends, I ended up eating alone, mindlessly, at 2 a.m. It was as though I’d been “deprived.”
But I didn’t let it ruin the tone of the weekend — which is progress.
Friday we went out to dinner with our friends and I enjoyed myself, eating the dinner I wanted (tzatziki and pita, and chicken kebobs with veggies) plus dessert at the coffee shop we went to afterwards. (fresh fruit and part of a decadent, rich chocolate oat bar).
Saturday we saw a show (Capitol Steps — awesome) and then went to dinner again — once again, savored the food and company, and once again shared some of the delicious desserts we ordered.
And Sunday we went apple picking with friends, which was a ton of fun. Instead of banning anything that hadn’t been on my food plan for the day, I had a generous sip of cider, a few nibbles of donut, and a sample of fudge. I just didn’t eat the other half of my PB&J to compensate, and had a lighter dinner.
I have no extra points left and had to eat activity points this week (which I try not to do), but it was worth it to truly savor the first real feels-like-fall weekend.
The good news is, I think I’m 20 days chew-and-spit sober now. I’ve lost track; it’s just not been my impulse to do it lately and I think it’s because mentally and emotionally, I feel a lot better.
I gave in to many temptations this past weekend, but I did it with gusto, and there’s no looking back. The scale is up, and it might be for a few days. But with some clean eating, I know I’ll be back to where I want to be … and I’ll be happier for having lived a little.
How about you? How did you savor your weekend?
Entry Filed under: Binge Eating, midnight eating. Tags: binge, bingeing, midnight eating, savoring.
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Lori | October 6, 2008 at 3:52 am
I’ve never posted before but as someone who was bulimic for many years, and still struggle to be “normal” everyday, I find your posts to be inspirational and totally relateable.
My birthday is October 2nd, as well. AND I turned 29 this year. I feel a lot like you do. I’m trying to reflect on all that I’ve accomplished during my 20s. I finished my bachelor’s and my masters. I’ve had the incredible opportunity to live in Italy and Germany for the last 4 years and travelled extensively. I worked hard at a job that I loved and felt like I was making a valuable contribution. I married my sweetheart and have had a really wonderful marriage for the last (almost) 6 years despite 5 very difficult and stressful deployments. I’ve been lucky enough to make and maintain several enduring and wonderful friendships. And best of all, I had my first child this year…she is the absolute JOY of my life. She is my inspriation to beat my disordered eating. I want to raise a strong woman who does not measure her worth by the size of her thighs or the quantity of food that she eats.
Anyway, thank you for your blog, your honesty, your self. Happy Birthday. I think 29 will be good for both of us.
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lissa10279 | October 6, 2008 at 9:29 am
Too funny, Lori!!! Happy belated to you, as well — and congrats for where you are in life, it sounds like you’re making enormous progress and having your little one sure helps keep you on your toes!!! Cheers to 29 — savoring all it has to offer!
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Kristen | October 6, 2008 at 9:55 am
Oh man I had a horrible weekend! I haven’t eaten that much junk food in ages, but I didn’t beat myself up about it as much as I would have previously. The bf and I spent a nice weekend with friends at a beach house in LBI and the other couples that joined us brought candy, chips, cookies, etc. I didn’t show much restraint, but we did get a lot of walking around the area and I did my 30 mile ride yesterday. Like you, I expect the scale to go up a bit, but it’s nothing we can’t handle. These occasions come once in awhile so it’s good to savor the good parts of the weekend and allow these minor slip-ups to move past us.
And congrats on your 20 days of no chewing and spitting! That’s about 3 weeks!
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lissa10279 | October 6, 2008 at 11:36 pm
Thanks Kristen! 21 days now
Good for you, walking lots and not beating yourself up over it — that’s half the battle, not getting upset when we overeat or eat less cleanly than usual.
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